1st April 2015 -A special date

This is the day I was admitted to hospital.

A day that will always be remembered.

And this is how the story goes…

I have been married since 2009, and have been trying for a baby since 2012. We went to KKH for treatments and decided to do IUI to get pregnant in 2014 September. My first cycle didn’t materialise as I wasn’t responding as well as expected with the simulation of injections only, so the doctor advised for us to cancel this cycle. We agreed.

I had my second IUI cycle on November 2014. I managed to be stimulated enough with a pills and injections to produce 3 mature follicles. But this cycle failed when I didn’t manage to get pregnant. During the doctor review, she mentioned that my hubby’s sperm count was low on the day of IUI. She suggested that I give IUI one more chance before doing IVF as that is a more invasive procedure.

For my third cycle, I started my medications to induce menses in the end of December 2014, and I was informed that I will need to leave the company by the end of March 2015, due to department restructure. By that time, it was too late for me to reverse the process. My period came 2 days after the news. I started my third IUI cycle. I started my simulation with just injections as the pill will make it harder to stimulate the growth of the uterus lining. As expected, my follicles wasn’t stimulated enough. With the increase of injections amount, my follicles are stimulated, but at a large number too, so the doctor suggested that I either cancel this cycle or to go for IVF instead. We chose the latter. With more injections, and counseling for IVF, I started my IVF cycle. The doctor said that they will only do retrieval this round, but the transfer will only be done in my next cycle so that it will not be too taxing on my body. We agreed.

I had 14 follicles retrieved, but only 4 were fertilized, and finally only 2 made it to the freezing stage. So in my next cycle, both were transferred back into my uterus.

 
After the transfer, it was already March 2015, during the blood test, I know that I was pregnant with a beta of 1300. Which is a good number.

My first appointment was supposed to be on 08 April, which is one that I never made it to.

On 1st April, after my interview in the morning, I was on my way home since I have time before an interview in the afternoon, on the way back, I felt something gushing out from down below. And when I looked down, I realized I was bleeding, massively too. I called and informed my hubby about it, he was preparing for his shift but he called in urgent leave that day. I went home, changed my attire as my clothes are all covered in blood. Put on some pad, and took a cab to hospital. (I didn’t realised that I should have called an ambulance as I didn’t know it was something so serious.) By the time I reached hospital I have bled through my pad. So I changed into a hospital sarong. After waiting for my turn to see the doctor, they did a scan for me.

  

At that time, the doctor managed to find the baby inside my womb. But as I was still bleeding alot, she suggest that I get admitted and they will do a more detailed scan for me the next day.

I was still bleeding alot during the wait in the observation area in the emergency room. I was also listening to other mothers crying about the pain they were experiencing. But for me, I was just bleeding profusely, and I was totally without pain.

  
I was put on a drip to minimize my movement, and was told to just lie in bed. By the time they had a bed for me in the ward, the nurses have already changed me into pampers as I was really bleeding alot. In the ward, the nurses changed me back into pad for them to track the amount I am bleeding.

  
The next day, when the nurses brought me to the detailed scans, no baby can be found in me at all. So I was sent back to the ward. And in the ward, the doctor in charge explained to me the results of the scan, indicating that there isn’t any baby in me at all.

I was released from hospital the next morning.

I am grateful for the people who were there with me throughout my short journey. I enjoyed the moments I have the baby in me. I enjoyed the time I had the baby. The baby may be gone, but the moments are real.

  The times when I continued testing and testing to ensure that I was still pregnant since I didn’t have much symptoms.
The journey may not have been an easy one, but I enjoyed the journey. I have changed quite a bit as well. From someone who is afraid of injection to someone who can give myself injections everyday without fear. From someone who loves excitement from roller coasters to one who prefers the milder way of things. From someone who bothered by the expectation of others to someone who just want to do what is more important.

Of course this isn’t the end of the journey yet, I believe a baby will be blessed to me one day.

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感想 (11/07/15)

有些日子你永远都不会忘记

有些事情你一辈子都会记得

有些经历会改写你的生命

有些经验会改变你的一生

I just felt so much from these words now. They explained alot of changes that happened to me these few months. 

The experience is unique, treasurable, special and only belongs to me. The experience may not be a positive one, it may bring tears into my eyes when I think about it, but it really did change me. And it changed me in a special way. It teaches me about things which I may not have done previously. 

I had enjoyed the whole process of experiencing and learning for this event and I have no regrets about it. It is a valuable experience which will always mean something to me. No matter how long time may have passed from the whole event.

Ju Shin Jung (16 April 2015)

We had our fair share of cravings for Korean BBQ, and we decided to visit Ju Shin Jung to satisfy our cravings.

Banchan

Banchan – This is ever changing and free flow.

The Banchan can be used to add additional flavour into your bbq meat wrap.

Assorted Vegetables for wrapping

Assorted Vegetables for wrapping


Various cuts of meat

Various cuts of meat


Watermelon slices for dessert and a cup of cider

Watermelon slices for dessert and a cup of cider

We had their buffet so we can try more choices of their meats.

Their standards have been quite consistently good for all the visit I went which is something we like about them.

Ju Shin Jung – Guillemard
102 Guillemard Road #01-01 Singapore 399719
Tel: 6440 7707
Weekday: Lunch (11.30am – 2.30pm)
                  Dinner (6.00pm – 11.00pm)
Weekend: 11.30am – 11.00pm

Hong Kong Holiday (10 – 17 March 2015) – 16 March 2015

This is the day I have been anticipating throughout the holiday.

The day we went to Ocean Park.

We went to Australia Diary Co. for our breakfast. Their service was not the best, but they were super fast in their service.

Australia Dairy Co.

Australia Dairy Co.

Breakfast Set

Breakfast Set

Steamed Egg Custard

Steamed Egg Custard

After the nice breakfast, we head to Ocean Park.

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Star fish

Star fish

Giant Octopus

Giant Octopus

Giant Octopus

Giant Octopus

Stink Ray

Stink Ray

Seahorse

Seahorse

School of fishes

School of fishes

Stink Ray

Stink Ray

Crocs

Crocs

Sleeping Panda

Sleeping Panda

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Gold fishes

Gold fishes

Goldfish

Goldfish

Seahorse

Seahorse

School of fishes

School of fishes

Fishes

Fishes

Fishes

Fishes

Fishes with Shark

Fishes with Shark

Fishes

Fishes

Starfish

Starfish

Aquarium full of fishes

Aquarium full of fishes

Stinkray

Stinkray

Stinkray

Stinkray

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Shark

Shark

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Flowers

Flowers

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The ride to see the whole park

The ride to see the whole park

We spent the whole day at Ocean Park. Super fun and interesting for me.

But this mark the last full day we are in Hong Kong, as we are leaving back to Singapore the next day.

Hong Kong Holiday (10 – 17 March 2015) – 15 March 2015

We went to try the Tram in Hong Kong island.

Once we reach Kennedy Station, we had something to eat before we start our tram ride.

Porridge

Porridge

Rice Flour Roll

Rice Flour Roll

Fish Skin

Fish Skin

Once we alight from the Tram, we walked around the area before taking the bus back to Mongkok.

Suckling Pig and Roasted Pork Rice

Suckling Pig and Roasted Pork Rice

We had dinner at another restaurant in Mongkok. A famous restaurant called Hong Fa Roast Meat and Seafood.

Then we went back to rest in our rooms for the night.